Somewhere Deep: Overcoming The Edge (Part 1)
I. Overcoming the edge
Out of nowhere
I clutch the crumbling edge of heart’s desire
In the other hand -
a poem in progress
Each time the precipice gives way
From my grip,
I reach for the solid rock
where I had been standing
Where only moments ago I stood seduced!
In a synaptic show
of receiving and transmitting -
You to me, me to you
Where all at once, I was bathing in a thermal breeze,
Warming numbness with newness,
Drunk on the swirling color
That still rises from somewhere deep
Flurries of carnal exhaust took the shape of nothing
And the color of everything
Up and up from the infinitely gaping canyon of touch and feel
Of lure, want, release
The color was you
The puffs of heat
buzzing through me, turning me back on
Was you to me, me to you
Temptation. Then, the rock breaking away.
I was there and aware as it fell from under me.
Not to step back onto more solid footing
directly into the ravine of throbbing heat
Into the rainbow bending in thin air, me:
a heavy mass extruding from the cliffs of the heart
From enchantment to hanging here
All in one breath?
My activated body now zigzags with the wind,
Here in the vacuum of somewhere deep
The earlier swarm of rainbows now reduced
to a multi-colored tattoo of dust on my skin.
Memories of heat sparkle in the drying sweat -
In the surviving pulse of somewhere deep
Soon I’ll be landing so, I’m using the fall to collect my thoughts:
Retrace mindful steps right up the fall
Relive the dive, a victory in letting go,
And overcoming the edge for the lust of somewhere deep
On the way down I’m taking in all the views.
I’m making a plan, while losing altitude, to climb back up
Onto the edge where the view is breathtaking
And color explodes from the geysers below!
I’ll never give up
I’ll always return
to where the heat of desire is accessible
And the act of love is imaginable if not tangible
In the depths of La Garfagnana